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Everyone in my area has their thoughts centered on a single event that occurred just two days ago. An event that has brought many people to tears for the sheer horror of the situation; we all lost something that day. My best friend, Andrew, died in every parent’s nightmare-a school shooting.

He sent me text messages as it started until the end of his life. I couldn’t stop reading them over and over again, emotions overwhelming me in waves. I can’t talk to anyone about this, not even my parents-this is a very personal matter. But I need to somehow let it out, and this reddit community is the only place I know I can reach out to. That’s why I’ve decided to transcribe my dear friend’s last words to me here, completely unaltered.

Andrew: 11:42 | hey dude we have a stupid surprise lockdown rn

11:42

wish I were home sick like you lol

Me: 11:43 | rip they usually tell you about those drills. How longs it gonna last?

Andrew: 11:44 | idk but the teachers are being super bitchy about it like they think it’s a real threat haha. They actually think their enthusiasm will make us care XD

Me: 11:45 | bruhh theyre always so annoying like that

11:50

dont leave me on read respond already

Andrew: 11:52 | I don’t think this is a drill. They’re talking about an actual intruder and I think I heard gunshots

11:52

Fuck

11:53

One of the kids here said he came from the cafeteria where someone was shooting and kids were running around screaming

11:53

Dude the girls in the classroom here with me are crying really loudly they won’t shut up

Me: 11:55 | boi you playin

Andrew: 11:55 | No dude I’m fucking serious! I think this is actually real

11:57

I hope the police come soon. A few people said they made calls

Me: 11:58 | andew i really hope your not just fucking around this isnt funny

12:07

dude answer me

Andrew: 12:11 | Sorry I was just asking around if anyone knew how long it would take for them to arrive. They said the nearest station is like 45 mins away but theres like a fucking accident and a roadblock on the way

12:13

I think im scared

Me: 12:14 | holy shit dude youre so screwed if your joking

Andrew: 12:14 | i’m not! I wouldn’t joke about this sort of shit!

Me: 12:14 | oh god hang in there

12:15

is there an exit door for you?

Andrew: 12:15 | No im in class 212

12:17

If i jumped out the window i would break my legs since its on the second floor and be a sitting duck

12: 17

The loudspeakers just came on and confirmed theres a shooter hes moved out of the cafeteria

Me: 12:18 | lets hope nothing happens to you…im scared

Andrew: 12:18 | How do you think i feel? Im fucking terrified!!!

12:19

Sorry i shouldn’t have snapped at you. I’m just kinda shaken up

Me: 12:20 | its alright be strong

12:21

keep me updated okay? Ill worry if u suddenly stop talking to me…

Andrew: 12:25 | oh man hes moving around quickly from class to class I hope he skips mine

Me: 12:27 | do you have a god andrew?

Andrew: 12:27 | Wtf?

Me: 12:28 | No im just saying that if youre religious then you should pray for safety and deliverance

Andrew: 12:29 | Yeah that makes sense. The guy next to me is actually doing that rn

12:31

So this is what fearing for life is like. My hands are so cold why would that be

12:32

I dont want to die i always wanted to work for nasa i wanted ti be an austronat ehen i was a kid oh god fuck shit fucking hell man i cant i don’t want to die

12:33

Hes getting closer im so scared dudecread my messages please be there please you’re the onky person i have

Me: 12:34 | i hope you end up fine

12:34

im worried and scared

Andrew: 12:40 | FUCK I THIBK HES NEARBY I CAN HEAR SHOOTING REALY LOUD FUCJING HELL

Me: 12:40 | just stay wherecyou are and dont try to escapecor you might get shot!

Andrew: 12:41 | I KNOW