Call me Crass or whatever the hell. But as far as I know, no other hood can compare to mine; Whatever we do, we do that shit. Im not one for incriminating myself on the net, so ill keep that part brief. But we stick together; know that. Real shit though, last night set some oceans in motion; that I fear the outcome of. Whole block cant make heads or tails of the shit, dead homies. So I really just need some type of external frustration put into this situation.
No one knows I’m talkin on the blogs and all that; so I do ask you keep what I tell you in this one.
Yesterday, I get out of class around….3:45 in the PM, I stay in 6th period a little longer; Cause you know - Ms. Swetnam fine ass. Anyway, I head to the handball courts afterwards - older homies come around with the brews to the courts; Its a normal ass day. I play till around 6, I live just down the street so its a 3 minute skate from school Back to the house. Coo.
As soon as I see the front of the crib, I know something’s off. I can’t explain it in words other than - a 6th sense. When you get raised in violence, bred to do violence, all without getting caught; You develop some type of enhanced intuition for real.
They say humans used to have that naturally, back when we was all like; hunter gatherers. Whatever it is, my shit was going off, tingling like crazy. By then I already had my strap out. A .38 I usually keep on me if I got nothin else. Whole time I probably looked like an oddball slowly inching towards my own crib, like its enemies inside. From the outside lookin in, I looked percced out; my shirt gettin wet spots on it from the sweat and all. I make it to the door, and crazy shit is; I knocked.
No one answers
Nobody Home
Coo, I can just open the door now
Just turn the knob Loc, that’s all you gotta do.
It’s almost like, I didn’t exist in that moment. Nothing did. Freestyling through air like oxygen, just waving in the wind like a plastic bag comin from under a car. I couldn’t feel much of anything.
I kicked that bitch in. Right off the hinges. Something wasn’t goin, and if it was enemies in my crib; either they was gon die or I was.
I didn’t see nobody in the front room, so I slid around the corner to my bro’s bedroom. Door was open, checked corners real quick - Slid to my sisters room. Same thing; door wide open already.
After doing this to every room includin the bathroom, I felt a little goofy id admit.
Now I gotta explain why the front door broke and my OG gon get on my ass. Mama pretty skilled with that belt; damn. But even after all that, plus knowin imma get my ass beat; my intuition was still going crazy though; something was still off; But I had no lock on what that could be.
Oh Shit.
My sister; never leaves her door open. She locks it every day before we go to school; because my lil bro always takes her shit outta there. Yeah; its someone in here. Gotta be.
I double-back to her room, and check it again ; as soon as I do - Something festering breathes right on the back of my neck. It was a hot, musky type of air. An irregular moisture accompanied it; and I was frozen in place. I couldn’t do nothin. It’s almost as if I got licked by something. But something I didn’t wanna turn back and look at.
I’ve been in rooms full of people that got no problem takin ya head off. Been in certain situations where my well-being was put at risk the deadly way. Never have I ever felt this type of energy from something.
Whole time this goin; I’m still facing my sister room. Then; the closet slides open slowly.
Midway- I can see somethin in there - blacked out like a shadow, but its somethin in there.
And its looking at me - I turn tail to get the fuck outta there, and i’m met with a bright white light and a crazy headache. I woke up in the hospital after that. My momma say the Doc’s think I tried to off myself. Probably because somewhere in that moment, I pulled the trigger, Shot my foot on the way down or something. my moms found me when she got home though, no one calls the police around there.
When I got back to the crib I made a straight dash to my sister’s room, she was in there doing homework now and the closet was closed.
She looked at me with sad eyes, “What’s good? you straight C?”
“Yeah, a lil sum happened when y’all was gone, I think it’s coo now though.” I came back.
She wouldn’t let up on it , “I know what you be doin Crass, don’t play dumb with me. I been told you to get out of that mess.”
“Look bro, I wasn’t tryna off myself; it’s some shit really weird going on right now. Somethin aint right Eve.”
“Alright imma believe you C, just talk to me if something is bugging you; alright?”
I could tell she was more worried than usual, so I didn’t wanna tell her what happened. Right then, because right now - It’ll just sound crazy.
I managed to ease the tension in the mentions and everyone cooled down. We got old Uncle from down the way the come put the door back up; Ma cooked up some heat. For them, the night was nice after that.
I stayed up though. My intuition was still going crazy. I checked to make sure everyone was asleep, and made it to Eve’s room. I had the key to the room, so I unlocked it slowly. Creaked open the door.
I notice immediately the closet open, but not just that. There’s some sort of - White - grey…fog? Mist? leaking out of the door.
I looked where it was leading to, and it was creeping up Eve’s bed. She’s out, but can’t hear me - Im gasping for air at this point.
Then I look at her.
She’s covered in it; the fog, I rush over to the bed to wake her; No matter how hard I shake - she wont get up. Then I hear something
“Stop it child. If she wake’s it’ll startle her worse that you are now.”
I stammered out, ” W-what the fuck-“
“Am I ?” it chuckled.
“I am what one would call a Territorial - it’s- not of use to explain all, as you wouldn’t understand. Yet.”
It lifted up what I could only call; it’s, head? There was eyes but like; red and distorted, in a white foggy silhouette.
“Would you like to know, why I’m here?’
I just nodded, because At this point, I just wanted it to leave out.
“I was bred by you, and your kind. In essence; Do you know what a ghost is?”
“Yeah, so..” - I whispered, managing to steel up a couple words.
“No, I am not that. I am the result of blood young one. Brutality.”
“I am what you create in violence. I am what you sustain in your brutality. I will admit though; this is the first time a human has noticed me.”
“My - my sister-“ I mentioned
” Oh her? No need to worry; she’s a rare innocent in these sorts of zones. But she’s the only thing that would lure your out.”
I started backin out of the room, and it followed. It got up to and inch close to my face, and looked me directly in the eyes with it’s.
I saw everything. Every event from the war going on. My friends getting knocked off, the Big Homies getting killed too. Like a reel of everyone close to me having their last moments. I finally felt the weight of everything I had been doing. What was the real price? How many of us would be left after it was all said and done?
I pulled my .38 outta my pocket; I couldn’t stand to continue to contribute to what was going on. And I knew it would ,but at least I wouldn’t be there for it. So I raised it up to my temple.
“Before you do that, there is something else you need to see.” I looked into it’s eyes again, and it showed me things, that looked just like it; in every one of the homies houses. Some blanco white, some as dark as shadows. All equally terrifying.
“You see, you have a chance. The Corruption hasn’t quite set in for you yet. But some others, as you can see, will be leaving this world very soon.”
Tears streaming down my face, “What do I do?” I managed to get out.
“Well, that is up to you. From here on out; your actions will be weighed on The Scale. It’s up to you to straighten out.”
It disappeared after that. I collected myself today and just got outta Swetnam class. She asked me to stay after and asked about my foot. She said I could come in there whenever I wanted to chill out during the day. Ima most definitely be using that.
Ima see if I can see that thing again tonight though, because I got some questions for it now. We gonna see how it play out; but i’m not scared of that no more. I tried doing some research in the library about it; and I wasn’t able to find nothing to explain it.
That’s why I’m telling this here, if this “Territorial” is a real threat we got no way to defend against it. Not to mention all the other ones just hangin around.
I feel like, if something doesn’t get done about them fast; We wont make it out.